Little pieces of my sentence broken up to form a rhythm

To My Sunshine

Sat, 21 May 2005 20:18:59 GMT

You were the lone bright-spot in my day
But i guess i just didnt know how to say
I love you
It was something that was just so hard
And now its begin to jar
Everything I've held in
Flowing and pouring out
I wish i told you with out a doubt
But i was so scared because i knew it was true
I didn't want to be with anyone but you

I knew about his fcuking lies
It made me fcuking dead inside
Because i didnt think you'd believe me
I let my emotions grab hold, and deceive me

So im left here with out you
Not even to see that beautiful smile
That still leaves me with denial.

I wish i would have told you
I would of been there to hold you
And tell you it would be ok
And that we were ment to be together anyways

I still fcuking love you
And it will always be true
Cuz my inner demons flow through
But you better believe
That my intent was to never deceive
Your heart, that i let fall apart
That i let fall apart

I wish i would have told you
I would of been there to hold you
And tell you it would be ok
And that we were ment to be together anyways

Your best friend told me.
And if i said something i knew she hold me.
Accountable for the pain.
So i was left to be driven insane.
I promised not to tell
Even though it put me through hell
I guess you shouldnt keep secrets
When its about someone you love
but its only a small regret
But its left me in debt
Living with the smile that kept me going
Because it was amazing knowing
That you'd always be there
But now im just scared
To even talk
because it seems youd rather walk
ALONE.
then with out me.

I wish i would have told you
I would of been there to hold you
And tell you it would be ok
And that we were ment to be together anyways

Trust isnt something i take lightly
Its something i think about nightly
But i guess thats why everyone breaks mine
Not every one has the divine
Strength to not lie.
When it comes to love.
When it comes to love.
But i guess they will learn that when they die.
And no one cries. Because of their lies.
Their intent to decieve.
And all they've precieved.
Will send them to a place they never wanted to go
A never ending hell hole.
But unlike most
Who brag and boast
About the innocence they've stolen
To them its all thats golden
But no not me
Thats now how i fcuking see

EYE TO EYE
I will die
No one will cry
Cry when i die

EYE TO EYE
I will die
No one will cry
Cry when i die

Im sorry i never told you
Im sorry i was never there to hold you
Im sorry i never kissed you
Im sorry i never told you i always miss you

But most of all im sorry i said this to late
I WOULD GIVE UP EVERYTHING FOR ANOTHER FIRST DATE
ANOTHER FIRST DATE... ANOTHER FIRST DATE...

To Every Girl I Ever Loved

Sat, 21 May 2005 19:36:03 GMT

Im sorry for looking for inspiration
But I guess I should be taking medication
For this solid state of depression
In my head that is always messin
With my emotions
I would give my upmost devotion
If i could just take your hand
Together we could find the promise land
Where everyone is equal
And no one is controlled by fecal
Qualities
And they'd see
The person inside
The person we try to hide
Which is ourselves, Which is ourselves
That is why we've created this hell. created this hell.

Accepted but never apart, its been this way from the start
Accepted but never apart, its been this way from the start

Im sick of playing games for your affection
After this im losing you; no disgression
Because I know the values that you hold true
And I know what its like to be someone like you.
Someone like you.

Accepted but never apart, its been this way from the start
Accepted but never apart, its been this way from the start

I just love that smile of yours
And since ive seen it, it has tore
Every emotion i have inside; out
And i realize with out a doubt
You were the one worth waiting for.
You were the one worth waiting for.

Show me that you love me, and i'll bring them all together.

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 09:50:04 GMT

so everything is out on the table, and im ready to move on, ive found motovation and some pretty sweet hookups so im pretty freakin excited about the shit that is to come in the very near future. Though everything might seem pretty shitty at this moment... i know its only going to get better no matter what. DAY one is successful.

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 01:38:03 GMT

so today was another day from hell. what else is new, i did not interact with anyone my age and sat around the house all day... now im here writing about it. Tomarrow i have to go to the city for a bullshit court date, im thinking i might bring some extra clothes to wear to make me look like a bum and see how much cash money i can make begging on the street, then i'll buy some food and send the rest to the Tsunami relif fund because i feel obligated to take money from douche bag buisness men and send it to the people that really need it. Then me and Kyle are going to rock out cuz i havent chilled with that negro in forever. 2 days in a row of entrys... this shows how bored i really am...help me please....

So Oakbrook sucks.

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 03:42:42 GMT

so that last entry was a long time ago and i now realize that as sad as it might sound, this might be the only way to keep in touch with the kids that ####### rock. So sadly im going to start doing one of these every so often. It doesnt help that im in that emo kind of mood cuz ever since i moved to oakbrook it seems that everyone that i thought was my friend really isn't so this is to apolgize to anyone that ive forgot about since ive moved and that we need to ####### hang because im sick of being dicked over by my so called friends. I guess im going to leave that one message on there too to remind myself that im a hypocritcal #######, and these things arent all that bad. Peace out nukkas and feel free to hit me up on my cell anytime because im offically never doing anything ever. 2178593. PEACE

FUCK YOU!!!

Wed, 30 Jun 2004 06:42:39 GMT

here's the deal fuckers, this thing is funny shit, i love how everyone writes shit so people can comment on how insignifacant their life is, blogs are for nothing but faggots and im callin everyone of you out, no one cares about how bad your life is, even if they post comments saying that they do, everyone is self absorbed fuckers no matter how you look at it... so fucking stop looking for friends to help you, cuz when you need it most they wont be there

P.S. im just making fun of you stupid fuckers that acutally up date it all the time and make it a part of your every day lives, this is not a journal entry of me being "emo", and this is the last time i ever look at this stupid thing ever....